I began my healing journey in earnest in a journal, free writing my heart out every day. That eventually shifted so that I poured my heart out every day in an *on line* journal, though I still kept a written journal on and off throughout the years. Then, I started writing poetry. Then, I got a wicked case of writer's block and I found art journaling.
Somewhere over the course of the last few years, I've lost touch with art journaling as my primary mode of self-expression. I've shifted to "mixed media artist", and that, my loves, has not served me well. It *could* serve me well *if* it were secondary to art journaling, but over the last several years, it's been front and centre. I even stopped working in a journal just in case someone saw a painting they liked and wanted to buy it.
As soon as I started thinking about that, my whole practice changed. I stopped painting about my life and started painting more universal themes. I started censoring what I include in my paintings. I shifted focus to painting only in response to certain inputs - new moon, full moon. My practice stopped being therapeutic and became stressful.
It was still fun, don't get me wrong, but I was way less inclined to do it because I wasn't engaging it the way my soul yearned to engage it.
In response to this newly arising awareness, I'm going back to basics. I need a journaling practice to support my healing journey. I need a place where I paint without caring about anyone's gaze but my own. I need to paint from my guts as well as my heart. I need to paint my reality as well as my wishes.
And so, I'm going back to Book Of Days. Back to an art journal (simpler this time - a basic sketch book, though you will have the option to bind your own and a tutorial in that is offered). Back to the near daily habit of touching in with a bit of colour, symbolism, words. WORDS. Back to JOURNALING in my art journal.
When I made this decision and started to plan how I'd do it, what iteration I would like for it to take, I had a few revelations:
I don't want to identify as a "mixed media artist". Too much pressure. I want to identify as a JOURNAL ARTIST. I want art journaling to be my focus - especially the self-soothing, healing modality, "meeting myself on the page" part.
Realizing that I'd "lost my way", or "gone off course" has been such a relief, y'all, because now I can course correct.
Anyway, if you miss *art journaling*, as much as I do, I welcome you to join me.